Mourning Eyes

our importance

accepting

our insignificance

~

we are light

expanding

time and space

~

Image: Geo Sans

Guiding Light

love

is

truth

~

I may not

understand

or

correctly

speak

the language

~

but

I believe

I trust

~

Image: Geo Sans

Heart Ache

postpartum

spontaneous coronary

artery dissection

~

I held our newborn

watching you

~

surrendering, she asked,

“what’s this all about?”

closed my eyes, sighed,

“become comfortable in doubt.”

~

tubes, machines

fast-forward-etch-a-sketches

seismographic skyscrapers

~

so hard

to talk

much easier in code

~

Colour Theory

maybe

there’s no

black and white

~

merely labels

accumulating all colour

to absence of all

~

tick the box

there’ll be no logic

no right or wrong

when you’re with me

~

sharing

communicating

birds calling moons

painting sunrises

together

~

one

with love

believing

trusting

each other

~

I want

to start

a new religion called

maybe

~

Believe

we all fear

becoming

what we fear

~

vulnerable

~

trust

our ignorance

in love

~

be still

keep dancing

life will not always

make sense

~

learn to love

our contradictions

we’re nothing

we’re everything

~

find comfort

in doubt

sometimes

it’s the only light

we’ll ever have

~

“I learn by going where I have to go” ~ theodore roethke

~

Intimacy

eyelids are closed

nobody knows

who I really am

~

trying to fall

are you trying to fall

asleep?

~

losing it all

are you losing it all?

(peace)

~

surrender to her

surrender to the world

release

~

Image: Geo Sans

~

Sexless

I’m naked

before you

hurt

~

I’ve lost my courage

to try

~

show me

how to nurture

your nature

~

show me

how to love

again

~

Image: Geo Sans

Code

excluded

your secret language

I’ll never know

or understand

~

Surrender

accepting

capacity

limits

letting go

opening hearts

to trust

~

Reborn

release

my failures

my successes

learning as I go

~