my daughter
my priority
~
sharing hearts
~
great joy
gratitude
great love
~
when we lost
our son
we lost
each other
~
we were shells
empty
hurting
voids
~
different ways
of grieving
disconnected
us
~
our raw pain
forced unrealistic
expectations
upon ourselves
~
feeling
emotionally abandoned
unable to help
heal
~
I’m sorry
I let you down
when you needed
me
~
I’m learning
to forgive
myself
~
we’re educated
to question, wonder
examine critically
~
no longer fearing
hidden truths
behind sacred words
~
I’m learning
to love compassionately
to accept
what I don’t understand
~
wide open
my heart, my eyes
acknowledging
my blindness
~
and that
is okay
~
I’m doubting my way to salvation
~
Image: Geo Sans
a stranger
my new best friend
a ray of light
in my institution
~
in the dark
am I dreaming
from talking
loudly stalking me
~
alarms
ringing halls
in single file
climbing walls under beds
my brother’s shadow
talks me down the ledge
~
hide me
in a room with a camera
where they’ll never
never
find me
~
close my eyes
and dream
just dream
~