Tag Archives for Life

Forests

leaves press colour

roots bloom memory

seeds learning through play

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glowing shades

bleed the breeze

growth, spiral, decay

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true love’s beauty

promises heartache

courage lights our way

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forests paths cross

smile, see me

water lines flow

hug, kiss me

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I’m learning not to camouflage

all these feelings

I have for you

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Forests

Image: Geo Sans

Earth Is My Womb

Earth Spiral

Image: Geo Sans

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fossilized spirals

born without a heartbeat

tomorrow I breathe again

reciting to myself

impermanence is permanence

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10 years ago

holding our stillborn son

today I count strata layers

curling in the deep core

my suffocating tomb

 

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We discover meaning through experiences. We’re young. We’re old. We keep experiencing, we keep thinking, we keep feeling. We like to lie to ourselves that things will stay the same. Then, we say it’ll get better.

We keep changing. Life keeps changing. Endless spirals and cycles of decay and growth. Struggling to find an equilibrium. We know life is cruel. Searching for a sense of meaning.

Why does the sun set? Why does a flower bloom? We know how … but why? How is everything all connected? Maybe our minds create our unique connections. Maybe there aren’t any …

I think too much. I don’t “do” enough. My muscles and my body aren’t “tired” enough. Sleep continues the questions and searches through my dreams. Familiar becomes unfamiliar and back again. I wake up and I go to sleep and life continues.

I feel tired. I feel sad. I feel lonely. I’m becoming disconnected again … to myself and this life. Grief does this to me. Anniversaries do this to me. I think too much about what could have been instead of what is.

10 years ago, this past weekend, I held my stillborn baby boy. Looking at his beautiful face, I was overwhelmed by sadness, grief, and a stinging sense of joy. I left the delivery room and was physically sick in the hospital bathroom.

You, my son, are not here.

I’m here. I love you. I miss you. I miss what could have been. You touched me with love’s potential — and then shook my soul and thundered my mind.

Today, I honour and remember. My hands are trembling and empty — but I’m still holding you in my pain. And I’m grateful for this presence.

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Geo Sans

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ProvincialFlower

Image: Geo Sans

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there are two basic

motivating forces:

fear and love

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when we are afraid

we pull back from life

When we are in love

we open to all that life has to offer

with

passion

excitement

and

acceptance

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we need

to learn to love ourselves first

in all our glory and

our imperfections

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if we cannot love ourselves

we cannot fully open to our ability

to love others

or our potential

to create

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evolution and all hopes

for a better world

rest in the fearlessness and

open-hearted vision of people

who embrace life

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john lennon

Honouring Today

honoring today

Image: Geo Sans

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maybe endless possibilities

beyond perception

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I am working towards

accepting

uncertainties of life

things

I don’t know

I can’t understand

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the phenomenon

humanity and science

cannot yet prove

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I’m learning to live

with life’s ambiguity

a world without answers

transitioning

within constant

change and doubt

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I’m learning to live

in a world without

imposed cultural expectations

or religious structures

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I’m working towards

finding comfort

courage

within this present moment

within my own relationship

and understanding

of love

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I’m learning to focus

my energy

loving kindness

towards myself

others

and our place

in this planet

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maybe my purpose

is to prove to myself

the awareness

the endless possibilities

and discover

my own personal truths

my unique spiritual path

towards love and inner peace

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maybe love and inner peace

are possible

for all of us

in our own time

in our own distinct way

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maybe