Twirling

my daughter

our love

~

watching you grow

is viewing

a dance

unwinding

in slow motion

~

Being Maybe

a being

reaching hands

pulling

penetrating

infinite

possibilities

~

Heart Ache

postpartum

spontaneous coronary

artery dissection

~

I held our newborn

watching you

~

surrendering, she asked,

“what’s this all about?”

closed my eyes, sighed,

“become comfortable in doubt.”

~

tubes, machines

fast-forward-etch-a-sketches

seismographic skyscrapers

~

so hard

to talk

much easier in code

~

Intimacy

eyelids are closed

nobody knows

who I really am

~

trying to fall

are you trying to fall

asleep?

~

losing it all

are you losing it all?

(peace)

~

surrender to her

surrender to the world

release

~

Image: Geo Sans

~

Code

excluded

your secret language

I’ll never know

or understand

~

Surrender

accepting

capacity

limits

letting go

opening hearts

to trust

~

White Noise

kissing hands

wave good-bye

walking fingers

across the sky

~

guessing neurons

skipping Rome

forgetting history

and going home

~

turn out the lights

when you leave

when you’re gone

I’ll remember

I’ll grieve

~

blue smiles

purple hearts

my body bleeds

when we’re apart

~

missing neurons

skipping stones

forgetting the mystery

and letting go

~

flicker fade

flicker fade

the computer forgets

when it isn’t paid

~

Identity

in · for · ma · tion

I am not my name

I am not my birthdate

~

my mobile phone is not my life

neither is my toothbrush

~

is a person’s identity singular ?

am I all my years put together ?

is identity a constant ?

is my identity who I am right now ?

~

I’ll be a totally different person in 20 years

we can’t outrun ourselves

I’m not the same person from 20 years ago

same name

different person

~

everything defines me

nothing defines me

maybe

~

I am not my bones

we are spirit

~

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Missing

when his mom died

my dad was eight

~

we talked

before he died

he had no memories

of her

~

cells, bones, tissue

are you still repressing ?

~

Introductions

christmas at home

the only time

my stillborn son

my father

mother, sisters, brothers, nieces, nephews

together

~

Dad

are you tired

of being called

grandpa ?

~

it’s always an honour

~

congratulations

you’ll be

a grandpa again

~

you’ll always be

together

~