in 2006
my life slipped
downside
downer
~
within 3 months
I held my stillborn son
my dad died of cancer
I was charged with assault
~
grief
guilt
shame
digging my core
scraping regrets
dragging bones
spiralling
new
low
~
admittance
psychiatric ward
~
I’m nobody
I’m everybody
another voiceless number
without earth / geo sans
longing for a role
wishing for a place
longing for belonging
wishing
for
maybe
~
thankfully
my wife and I were committed
to loving
each other
~
carrying boulders
harrowing descending spirals
plowing parellel lines
together
~
love
was our only
guide
~
time
we promised
would never
erode us
~
we withered
we cried
we hid
we lied
~
we’ll
be
okay
~
In 2009
our daughter
was born
~
nine days later
my wife
suffered a heart attack
~
thankfully
she survived
but her / our
healing process
was new / now
again
~
our daughter
protected us
held us together
gave us meaning
strength
~
she was
our guide
our light
~
writing
this past year
I’ve sorted through moments
images
new / old poems
~
I’ll never truly understand
what I’ve gone through
~
and
maybe
that is
okay
~
Geo Sans 