21 Days Later

when my dad died

someone reached

into me

and squeezed

~

until I couldn’t

cry anymore

~

when the surge

subsided

I looked at myself

~

I saw

what I always

misunderstood

~

I saw

a part of

my dad

~

and that

is okay

~

Remembering Dad

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32 thoughts on “21 Days Later

  1. When my father died, my tears stopped functioning. For a few years actually. Until I watched a random movie – terminator 2. In the end when he sacrifices himself, I couldn’t stop crying. I cried and cried.

      • I cannot imagine. I was 16 when my father died. It took a long time to not feel like an explosion trapped in a glass box.

        On Tuesday I was in the ER with my daughter, just for stitches. I cannot imagine if anything more than superficial happened to my babies.

      • It broke me, then rebuilt me. I have a song that marked a moment of letting it all go.

        As I told my daughter, it’s just back story. After that she had gratitude for the experience.

  2. Thank you for stopping by my blog. Your poems are heart-stopping. Words are always inadequate expressions of a loss – and a loss of this magnitude… I can only say you are a very positive and courageous person and I pray your life is filled with peace.

  3. This one resonates with me … I lost my father when I was 14. I wish someone had reached in and squeezed …. I think it was about a decade before I really shed a tear, and, probably about two decades before I cried my heart out.

    I’m good at locking things away.

  4. I am sorry for your loss. You have gone through so much. Letting this out (through your GIFT of writing) is so necessary and healthy for your journey of healing. I lost my dad when I was 22 and keeping it inside only caused me more pain. I hope that you find some comfort and peace as you continue to create with words.

  5. Someday, you will fly, and I imagine your wings will reflect all the beauty of the words you share.
    Thank you for your beautiful poems.

    ~Meredith

  6. My father lost his mother, his father, his wife, his daughter and his son all within a couple of years. He was left with his four year old daughter to care for. His hands still tremble when he looks at the pictures of my first family. He’s a good man. You sound like a good man, too. I hear you.

  7. I can really relate to this Geo, that happened to me too! Didn’t always get on with my Dad, and after reaching the point of both parents dead, I felt a bit numb by it all. And to my surprise found there was a lot of my Dad within – probably why we clashed so much I guess!!

    It’s quite bizarre seeing bit’s of your parents in yourself!

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